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everyone around me is getting irritated. muahaha. *tweet tweeeet*

i went to town just now.
i didnt go to town with the intention to buy anything.
really. but the extra discount presented to me was too tempting to let go. thank you "mommy". :)

damn boring................... i need a life.

part of me cant wait for october.
the other part is kinda dreading october cos i know things will never meet my expections. sigh. :( AGHHHHHHHH. hate this feeling. fuck.

i feel emo.. like i need to cry. gosh.. i am so fucking bored of my life now. i need to start finding something meaningful to do. besides having late nights. and it really doesnt help that ive been putting on weight as though every meal i take makes me like 1kg heavier. i am getting so fat i cannot fit into my favourite pair of jeans.. (i am still praying for the day that i can fit into the pair of mooks jeans danny bought for me 3 years ago.) and when i saw my mom wearing my pair of 3/4s the other day, the one that i bought last year.. (my mom wear still very loose ok.) i went.. "mommy, why you wear my pants?" and she went.. "you also cannot wear already..." and also not forgetting last wednesday when i was at my sister's place.. she looked at my levis 501s.. and she went.. "now you got alot of clothes you cannot wear already right?"... and i went.. "yah..".. and she said.. "time for you to lose weight daph.."

come september, i will cut down on late nights. stop the alcohol. and..... and... try to pack my room cos its in a huge mess now. books (yes i do read ok.) everywhere and clothes everywhere cos every morning i try on like 3 different outfits before deciding what to wear.

its the selective email reply system. agh. i ask you something that you dont want to answer, you dont reply. you ask me something that i dont wanna talk about, i dont reply. greattt. well, i am sorry i am not a lesbian. (yet, as you would always add.) i am sorry for the empty promises that i made to mommy and jiejie regarding school. i am sorry that i screwed up. again. yes. again.

i dont really want to attend church nowadays, because when i listen to the lyrics of the songs at home.. i dont think i am of any worth to sing it if i really dont mean half the words in there. take for example.. "its you i live for everyday."... and alot more. theres so much more i can say. but agh, enough on this.

to the people around me.. thank you for being here for me and all. should you see me going down the wrong path, please do not hesitate to come clean with me. yes i know i can be a total bitch. and yah quite irritating when im drunk. (okay fine. say very if you want to) and yah i can be a tiny bit superficial at times. and sometimes i dont even remember your name. but please pardon me. for we are all human. (okay fine so its a stupid excuse.)

aiyah. i hate feeling depressed. and its not even fucking PMS lor. and i am so sure that i will not enjoy my taiwan trip already. cos my mom wants to make sure that i dont fucking buy DFS cigs.. and like everyone (almost) has been telling me how dangerous taiwan is. and i wanted to like go shopping alone lah if the rest are going sightseeing or sth cos the shopping district is just like a 5 mins walk away from my hotel.

9th oct will be a sunday.
i really really want to go to the airport to pick my brother up. but the thing is, is he even really coming back? agh.

hmmm. i think my last day of school in lasalle was around err april? and now its like the end of august. so its been about 4 months of bumming around. wow... great! how exciting. like oh my gosh the excitement...

enough. i am gonna attempt to cry now.

i am kidding. really. i am a-ok.

i had the weirdest dream.. i dreamt that i was in some poly. and then there was this like adventure camp. and no prizes for guessing who was in the same class as me lah. and she was wearing a skirt. (WHAT THE HELL??!!!) and then like everyone that ive been hanging out with were in the dream too. but we were all in ugly clothes. (ewww) and somehow like dana from L word was in the dream too.

quite funny.

partners in crime... muahaha.. love you!! :)

guess who we met up with for valiant! buddddyy!!!

just got home.. haha. okay so it was a boring saturday. didnt go down to onyx in the end. :(

but cat and i ended up watching 2 movies.. must love dogs and valiant.

pigeons go TWEEET TWEEEEET!!!!!!! so cute!!!!

macs breakfast... ahh yummy.

now im still a lil awake.. meeting shannon in town later. haha. gotta get some rest!

just had dumplings and la mian for dinner. and duck tongue!!! hahaha and amazingly duck tongue is realllly nice. okay lah edmund cooked.. so thats why very nice! haha.

ahhh im getting fatter. like whats new. soon i will be overweight. sigh. i need new clothes. i cannot fit into my favourite jeans anymore. boohoo.

okay gonna go to town now to catch a movie.. i wanna go to onyx later but denise wants to stay at home. on a saturday night.. why! bahh!

where can we go after our movieeeee!

oops. no no, it should be doesnt --- resemble her? both so dyke-ish.. somemore hair so long.. both tall and skinny.. ahhh.. swoooon.

ahhh shane is so cute!!!!!!!! doesnt she resemble ---? tell me she does.. haha

jer and i last night..

look!! daphne is a flower!

im supposed to buy this back from taiwan.... tried it.. its damn nice!!!

ahhh just came back from zouk!

everyone was like there tonight.
the st margs bunch, cousins friends bunch, toni&guy bunch, club21 bunch.. yadayada.

so it was the veryexotic event, like wow so very exotic lah. pole dancers, yadayada! and like free flow of barcadi redbull.. kel and i had a bet during the fashion show. whether or not the models are 100% women. in the end turned out some were men.. as in like trans. apparently or so kel says. so we bet over a flaming. haha in the end we both drank one each. anyone wants to go to KL soon? i met a friend whos living there and could bring us to all the cool (and maybe gay lah. cos he is gay.) places in KL to shop and club!! wooott!

i had like damnnn nice dumplings at cat's place for dinner! edmund and kit makes the best dumplings! and soup too! wahh!! the thought of it can make me drool..

ahhh ok so i sms-ed her. :) wheee! heh.

ayee tonight zouk got lingere show...

wanna cum?


hahahhaha.

best thing that happened to me this morning.

hearing wannabe on class95 when the radio clock woke me up. muahah!

somehow we all look like we've got damnnn good skin here. hahaha.

meet the thai students who are studying in NAFA now.. painting.. thats PRA with the cap and PREE without.. oh yah we love kawaii things. isnt the peace sign so kawaii?

hahaha kai baby in her daddy's shades...

we had like 4... tiger. eww. ktv ktv! i miss ktv-ing with the mel kel ed bunch!

i know when did we take this.. we took this before leaving onyx for living room.. and then you see the only toilet door thats open behind? there was this girl down in her thongs trying to shit over there. and yah that cubicle has no door. haha. and ohh yes the other girl next to me is kelly... shes very nice and shes very skinny.. i finally got her name right. like how the A guy's name was actually Zac. see theres the connection. after A its back to Z.

and the lights go out.. and they all go.... diutiudiutiu.. hahaha..

I KNOW WHERE THIS IS...... onyx's toilet... hahaha..

monday night.. before ktv.. after wala.. wahh.. tweeeese sia.

this picture was taken at either onyx or caesers..... either..... but i forgot. haha.

aghhhhh. why do you guys wanna go to mambo tonight when i only fell asleep at like 1-ish last night and woke up at 7.. if we're going to zouk i am so sure i cannot wake up tomorrow for work.

agh, but its been ages since we went clubbing. :(

im so pissed with my ex collegue. so im not working at ____ anymore. and they call me out of the fucking blue to ask me to help them to design a banner.. what the fuck. im not so free lah. but i dunno how to say no. so i have to do it. knn... grrrr. and those that need help from me arent even those that i still keep in contact with lah.

grrrowls!

so i couldnt fall asleep. cos i spent my time reflecting. and then i decided that i probably want to cut my hair tomorrow. must remember to call and make appointment later.

and nope, not going to zouk tonight.
although its really tempting... but im really sleepy!

im feeling depressed.

no actually not depressed. just empty.
like ding ding clink clink empty.

like i dont know what the fuck ive gotten myself into.

everyday so boring. go to work. meet people for dinner after work. drink. smoke. die. then weekends go clubbing. drink again. smoke again. eat supper. come home in the morning. sleep in the afternoon. go out again. come home in the morning again. never go to church again. then go to town again. slack again.

yah.. ive got no life.

fuck lah.

met rockee and the rest in holland for dinner! super full now.

i think im gonna rest this weekend. gonna stay at home and sleep. and no more clubbing.... i think.

no more holland followed by ktv sessions after work.

beer and more beer. at walas and then shenton way. yayness.

can you please tell me that i am NOT going to blow $250 on this........... but then again, its puma and its damn comfy.....

somehow this picture looks wrong lah..

i have no idea who that is.. i know denise and cat! haha..

i have no idea who the fuck this is. i was viewing my pictures and this appeared.

the only name i can remember in this picture is kel and daphne. hahaha.

okay.. shes very nice.. my cousin's friend.. err but i forgot her name...

spot minnie.. yes my minnie that i can go diudiutiutiu with..

i like this picture..

cat looks damn sane here.. hahhaa..

is that a fucking double chin?? AHHHHH!!!!!!

ahhhh guess who i saw.. like my ex tuition teacher.. yes in a club.

i have no idea where the hell i was looking...

at caesers....

so i met beks, and then i got chased out............ aye doode whats the results?

so as i said, yesterday afternoon i met my ex classmates from bukit merah. and thats my quite cute form teacher.. (with a very nice car) hahaha.

sera and i and a lil bit of viceroy

round round baby round round

i love spore. spore my homeland....... hahaha blahblah

and you say china....town!

at the airport in the morning!

no more threesome shots for the next four months!

meet PREE and PRA..

take two. "hey doode this is not my car.. whos??"

take one, "hey doode this is my car"

hahhaa outside the lift....

pootppoooot

fuck lah.. hangover..

hahahha wait till i upload the pictures... freaking memory card full! can you like imagine....

ahhhh just got home.

kel's friend sent me back. i forgot his name... starts with A... somehow i will ask around soon.

so it was like a bukit merah secondary gathering with my sec 5 friends and form teacher.. (who btw is fucking cute... plus the BMW 5 series lah!!) and then town... and then NTU hall 15 event whereby we got KICKED OUT by this fucker. like fuck since when were we even on the verge of getting kicked out. fucking hell that guy...

casers for chivas... abit too much though.... and then it was onyx.. fucking good music. met like everyone there. went with denise and cat.. and met like kel and the rest (yes, even my fucking sec 3/4 maths tuition teacher!!!!!!!!) there....... after onyx closed, we went to like freaking bar none. or is it known as the living room? with kel and the rest.... and after that took a cab back with.... shit i hate names..

fuck. still quite high on chivas and martell......................... ass. diudiudiudiudoomdomdomddomdooooom

wahh ive been up for like the past 47 hours!

lets see, thursday i woke up at 7am.. went to work. came straight home after work cos i have no life.. haha yes. went to bukitpanjangplaza to walk around cos i was really bored. actually spent like an hour plus walking around. haha. and at like 3am, beks came to pick me up to go to checkers! ahh yes all time favourite checkers!

at like almost 5am, this drunk guy came into checkers... and along came the story of the PREE & PRA sisters who are studying in NAFA. painting. and these sisters will email their photo to the drunk guy. HAHAHA.

went to the airport to send eve off. agh, hate the airport. never liked it. hate the train station too. aghhh!! anyway eve have fun over there! i want my mac! haha. and by then it was already 7ish.

went straight to work. almost got lost in raffles place again. (like whats new.)

went to club street after work.. was actually supposed to only walk around. ended up buying this 96hours wallet by puma. its really nice. and not buying it would be pure torture. actually got this other pair of shoes, very nice also. but i really dont need another pair of shoes. not to mention a $250 one.

town! heeren! woot woot. :) dinner at billybombers that left us veryy full and perhaps all a little heavier. as said, "everyone ordered so much, like all just went through a break up.."

rouge for drum and bass. doomboomdoomdoomboom.
phuture for rnb. dumdeedumdee. (there was this drunk -quite hot- caucasian girl who came to dance with us. came down on me and lifted me up my feet. kissed my hands and face. and attempted to do that with everyone else. ewww. even though shes hot, i dont fancy femmefemmefemme girls lor.)
zouk for techno. diutiudiudiudiu.
momo for idontknowhowtoclassify. duumdeeespdooom.

hello everyone.... zouk tomorrow? ive got like 4 invites. which pemits eight.. before ten. comon. its localised. support local DJs.

http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0746989/

for those who caught charlie and the choc factory!!!!! guess who is this.. doesnt he resemble.............................. ...... hahah take a guess. one of spore's most well known old man.

shannon stop tempting me with ebay!! NOOO!!!!!!!

lately, ive been coming home after work. and almost everyday after work.. i will buy something to read. it was cleo (which sucked) and then teen vouge and then some brainless book. i should stop walking past MPH..

yesterday, for like the 2nd time in errr.. a year and a half.. someone thought i was around melvin korkor's age. (and he's like 10 years older than me!!)

"i thought you were your cousin's age.. until i talked to you.. haha."

"are you......?" raises brows.
am i what?? haha.
"are you... hahaha. you know what i mean."
am i what? and no i dont know what you're implying.. grin grin.
"are you gay?"

hahaha. oh man..

ahhhhhhhh. what a boring wednesday. nope not going to zouk. neither am i going to concourse to watch them play pool.

damn. you're all i thought about today.

oh yah, im trimming my hair next week. lets just say.. i cannot wait! :D

friday.. clubstreet and then zouk. cat and nicky are confirmed.. the rest... dont go momo lah. momo on saturday? zouk on friday? plLlLLlLease?

i have brown, red, ash and purple hair. and i am so sure its all gonna fade away in like 2 weeks. always like that..

this is quite bad. my mind is filled with images of you.

i sound like some love sick girl. muahaa.

before coloring some parts... after bleaching..

shannon and i! sunday at errr, chinatown.

bus rides..

i seriously dont remember when did we take this, the light doesnt look familiar... got this from cat's phone.... we look quite high?

hahahah. my mom felt damn guilty cos last night i kept reminding her that this is the 3rd time they're going on a holiday without me. so... she called me this afternoon and went.. "you want to go right?" hahahha. yayy so im going.

took half day today to color my hair. rushed down to chinatown after work cos all i thought about since sunday was the pair of earrings i saw. haha. so rushed down after work and ended up buying 7 pairs.. and i still have alot in my drawer that i havent worn yet.. soon soon i will start selling my earrings. haha.

i sat/stood/walked around toni&guy from 2pm all the way till fucking 7.30pm.. but time passed really quickly cos i had great company. :) woot woot. :D now i have 4 different colors on my head. but its not really obvious..

met cat, kit, wai and a very late kelly after that.. heh.. piak piak. giap giap..

such a fan-fucking-tastic day... grin grin.

i need a hair cut soon. muahaha.

my mom is quite funny. she watched incredible tales, and then didnt dare to go and throw the rubbish away herself. so she came into my room and got me to stand at the door while she went to throw the rubbish.

i am still very very sore about them going for a fucking holiday without me. and its not the fucking first time. everyone at home loves doing this to me. they love leaving.

go, go further away. leave. leave for a longer period.

i wanna go for a holiday in september. i think i need some time alone. we two can play the leaving game.

the only thing im looking forward to.... you better be there tomorrow when i color my hair!!! woot woot woot.

my mom is going to taiwan in september.
my sis is going to perth in september. (cos my bro in law wants to play fucking golf. yah fucking roll your eyes.)

oh yes, and did i mention that they're all going without me?
yah how great im super jumping with excitement.

the initial plan a couple of months back was, perth with my mom, sis, bro in law and the girls. so my aunt decides to organise a trip to taiwan. so okay no more perth with my sis and her family, even better let them spend time as a family alone. taiwan instead. so great more shopping perhaps.

and i was just told that i am fucking not going to taiwan. because,
-i have work and its not nice to take leave.
-i can go out almost everyday and come home past midnight everyday. so i dont deserve this trip.
-i wont enjoy myself cos my mom is going with my aunties and the older cousins.

oh what fucking stupid reasons.

look, i dont give a fucking damn about the company. all i want to do is shop there. and leave isnt a fucking problem cos we all know who im currently working for. and tell me.. what the fuck does me going out have to do with this trip?

great. go. go to taiwan and shop without me. thanks a fucking lot.

leave me at home for one fucking week with the 2 men at home. OH MAN THE EXCITEMENT! i might even get a curfew with my brother observing my late nights. oh gosh how fun!! and living with the 2 men at home.. will fucking mean they will fucking expect me to clean this house. which is exactly what my dad expected me to do last year when everyone else walked out on him except me. like thanks man.

greattttttt. go.. you all can go on your fucking holidays and leave me alone in singapore. go.

plus fucking m1 still owes me money. last month i went back to submit my timesheet. but you know what? they apparently missed out on our timesheet. so no money today. fucking hell. very clever. now have to wait for another fucking month. very clever m1. very fucking clever. a "sori yadayada" message really wouldnt help you know. yuck.

plus i was so fucking lazy to walk to the 700 bus stop today. so i took fucking 75 home. took me an hour and a half. fuck. i wanted to die on the bus. fucking air conditioner like not working.

fuck lah what a bad day.
i cannot wait for september. oh yayyyyy! i will be alone at home and i can organise like swing parties. ohh the excitement. (im kidding.)

perhaps i shouldnt even expect much for october. i shouldnt even expect.

fuck.

ahhh chinatown!!! sungei!!! bugis!!! klassic!!! geylang!!!

so upsetting. i wanted to get my converse shoes. no size. dammit.
then wanted to get marc jacobs, thought pay not in yet. didnt get. then realised pay is in. lazy to walk back.

just now, at like 12.20am.. my bro called me. as in my eldest bro. not the one in ny. he called me to ask me why i wasnt home yet and got pissed over the fact that im out on sunday night (monday morning) and demanded that i go home straight after i hang up with him. but tell me why should i? i am not taking a single fucking cent from you, so dont come and impose a curfew on me now cos its really quite stupid.

today's gonna be such a fun sunday!
sunday people sunday people..

aiwei, kenneth got me the starburst from australia. but you could get starburst at milennia walk too.. its opposite the bus stop infront of the suntec convention center.. the building with the hugeee harvery norman. err its on the first level.. near yoshinoya that side.. its some giant candy shop that sells sweets from (almost) all over the world!

"you scratch my back, i'll scratch yours"

hmm now i know what kel meant.

such is life.

shall we go jogging at 3am again? haha..

fucking sour.....

my mom shouted at me on the phone this evening because she thought i brought someone home last night. like fuck not even.. but she was bloody INSISTING that YESS I DID BRING SOMEONE HOME. not even close lah.

friday nights, family talk with mister kel. ahh we like know each others entire family tree already. HAHA that bloody ass saw my miss cute girl, knew her friend but purposely dont want to talk to his friend. bloody hell. haha. somemore i gave him like 6 invites lah. ass. mister TAEKWONDO! (spelling?)

fuck cramps!!!!!!!!

wooohoo just got home!

went to bedok and tampines with jael and ting to do some climbing of stairs.. (ha ha ha) and then we took a long (like read, from the east.. to pulau boonlay) drive down to NTU to jog.

and i jogged like 5 rounds around the track! that means 2km!!! and i havent ran in ages so im fucking proud of myself. haha.

"wah lao fuck im damn wet"
hahaha where?

"uhu, do you have uhu?"

ahhh now im starting to feel the pain in my muscles... damn.

but again, what a fun night working out. hahaa.

and crap i gotta get up in about 3 hours time for work.

with the other bunch at zouk on monday!

ahhh look i took this picture! without any zooming ok. from my phone.. actually we were kinda near her. we were seated on the second level.. and she was facing out direction. ahh can you spot corrinnemay at the piano?